I’ve spent the majority of 2024 in struggle. Yes, there have been incredible moments, of course. But there’s been an overarching theme of “WTF?!” that’s been dampening my spirits for most of the year. Am I being a realist? Maybe. Or have I lost myself somewhere in the pessimism? More likely.
Regardless…2025 cannot be the same. I will not be the same.
More than ever before, I’ve been struggling with people this year. Whether that’s just a ‘me’ thing, or whether it’s a general reflection of society at present, I don’t know. But I’ve spent a considerable amount of energy trying to convince people who misunderstand me and my intentions, and trying to hold people together for my greater vision.
Emphasis on “MY greater vision”. And herein lies the problem…
I wrongly made the assumption that people will ‘get’ me. I wrongly assumed that my kindness, my integrity and my vision would shine brighter than my insecurities, my perfectionism and my (often blunt) honesty. I’m a heart led character, but I also won’t stand for any shit. This can come off as confusing for people, especially when I don’t meet their perceived ideals of me.
Let me put this in astrology terms for you…
Aquarius Sun (my truth) - visionary, kooky, bigger picture
Capricorn Rising (how people see me) - Sensible, considered, ambitious
Scorpio Moon (what’s hidden beneath the surface) - Deep, dark, intense
I’m complex. But aren’t we all?
When people doubt my integrity, that moon energy kicks in. And I’ve experienced a lot of doubters this year. But even more than that, when I see other people in the world operating with such little integrity, I’m triggered into that Scorpio moon even further. And that’s where I’ve spent a lot of 2024.
2025 has to be different. For my business, for my family, for my mental health. Things need to change.
I’ve spent the last couple of months plucking up the courage to make considerable change. Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere. I’m just reviewing and realigning all aspects of my life. I won’t give too much away, but I’ve been brave. I’m intent on moving into 2025 with fresh energy, aligned purpose and collective vision.
“Anything unaligned must go”
Does it feel good? Honestly, no. It doesn’t. It plays very heavy on my heart. But is it right? Yes. It’s an absolute necessity.
“Nobody is for everybody” - something I’m learning the hard way.
So here’s to 2025. New energy, better me.
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